Holidays

Starting tomorrow, it will be a two day holiday. It's something that I have been dreading for almost the whole year. Reason - LOML.

You see, I'll be spending those two days with my family. It's one of those times of the year that I actually get to meet up with them. And I'm not talking of just my parents and sisters. I'm talking about my grandmother, aunts, uncles, cousins, second counsins, etc.

Now LOML's family is quite far, and with the current oil prices, makes flying to see them very expensive. So, she decided not to go see her family during the holidays.

So you see the problem here. I'm off to with my family, having fun catching up. LOML is alone at home, watching tv. She has two days to come up with something that will make my life miserable! In fact, I'm pretty sure, these holidays are part of the reason she 'broke up' with me a few weeks ago.

Before you guys ask, let me just inform you that she does not want to spend the time with my family. Long story. Reserved for future blog posts. :D

So now, when I'm with my family, I have to also keep in touch with LOML to make sure she doesn't feel lonely and left out. Now don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't want to keep in touch with her. But, when you're forced to, it gets a bit stressful. You tend to get a bit uneasy.

If I didn't look at this as a chore, I'm sure I have no problems with texting her. I would be happy to do it. Have to change my mindset...

But I think after the episode she had a couple of weeks ago, she might be able to take it well this time. I'm pretty sure she understands that just because I'm not there with her, even in her time of need, doesn't mean that I'm not thinking of her. Doesn't mean that I don't care.

If she still goes into relapse, then I guess all that I've said to her went into one ear and out the other!

Think positive!!! She can do this!!! Believe in her!!!

Anyway, I won't be posting anything until Friday. So just hope that my next post doesn't have "Break Up - Again" as the title. :D