Persistence vs Ego - Part II

And at the end... she logged off!!!

No explanation, no goodbye, nothing.

To quote Jacquimo from the animated movie, Thumbelina, "You're sure to do impossible things, if you follow your heart..."

So I pack up my stuff and leave the office. I head to her office... Park my car beside hers and waited. You may think that this is stalking, but with LOML, it's what I have to do to get my point accross (obviously I have done things like this with her before!)

DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME!! You may be slapped with a restraining order! I'm a professional and have been properly trained to put my ego and dignity aside in order to make LOML realise that yes, I am in love with her.

So I ask her to go to dinner with me... she says, you guessed it... NO. This whole time she avoids looking at my face... She get's into the car and starts the engine. So I sat on the body frame at the door so she couldn't close the door...

So I start talking... I told her that we've always worked things out. We've been through so much... way tougher things than this. This is nothing...

I told her I was being persistent because she would do the same for me to save the relationship. In fact she has, but that's another story.

She knew what I was saying was true. A tear ran down her cheek. Still wouldn't look at me.

I told her that the reason she couldn't look at me was because it was just her ego stopping her from doing what her heart wants.

She finally says that she is busy. She has to meet up with someone for a dinner appointment, after which she has to go settle some stuff at the office. I told her, not a problem, I'll go with her...

This went on for a while... with her trying not to look at me even though she wanted to... My butt was starting to cramp up...

Finally, after pointing out that she still tries to look for me (through cell phone location tracking), she started to laugh...

She couldn't continue pretending anynore... she wanted me in her life, just as I want her in mine...

First 3 feelings that I felt were :

1. Happiness
2. Hunger
3. Sleepiness

I've hardly eaten or slept in almost 2 weeks. I get like that when I'm upset over LOML's "break up moments". There was an occation that I didn't eat for two days. When we 'got back together', LOML had to literally spoonfeed me because my hands were shaking so bad from the lack of food and I couldn't hold the utensils... Terrible, eh?

Anyway, I did follow her to do her work... I'm pretty sure she enjoyed having me there to keep her company...

We still haven't really talked about her issues. We've just scratched the surface. But at least we're talking with an open mind. And we have a lifetime to talk about it. I don't want to rush it... I want to live life to the fullest with her...

There were times in the past that I actually regretted getting back together, 2 mins after the fact. I felt that she was just not learning from the situation...

But this time felt different. I feel like I've gotten the message accross by sending all her stuff back to her house.

So I'm being optomistic about this... It's going to be even better than before... It usually is...

So there... my heart vs. logic... and my heart won... I'm happy for it...

My persistence vs her ego.... was there ever any doubt?