Somebody New, Young & Hot

I have made a decision. I'm gonna move on. No more standing here like an idiot, waiting for somebody who is not worth waiting for.

I've told a couple of friends about my decision and their response has either been a laugh or "yeah, right!" Obviously, I come to this decision each and every time. And each and every time, I end up waiting until she comes to her senses and we get back together.

So I tell my friends, this time it's for sure. I'm going to find somebody new who is young and HOT! Again, laughter... this time accompanied by "Who are you kidding? You love her too much!"

Seriously though, I think it's time to move on. It's not like I'm dumping her for someone young & hot... she's 'dumping' me and I may sometime in the future hook up with someone young & hot. So I'm technically not being the jerk here. She is...

So of I go, on my quest to find this person... I start with my phone... who do I have in the phonebook. After going through my list, I realised that I have deleted the number of every potential person a long time ago, in order to please LOML. Hell, I thought we were gonna last forever. Didn't think I would be 'looking' anymore. So that's a dead end.

What next? Let's try online chatting!! Ok, haven't done this in a while. How do you do this again? WHAT!!?? A VIRUS!!! SOMEBODY HACKED INTO MY PC!! MY BANK INFO HAS BEEN STOLEN!!??

Relax, didn't even download the chat client. Has been at almost a decade (maybe more) since I've actually flirted online with total strangers and arranged blind dates (2 cute ones, 1 hot one, and 1... hmmm... 'not very interesting'.

Maybe I should hang out at my old college... I still know the lecturers, staff, etc... so I wouldn't be just sitting there like a stalker... can catch up on old times.

You know, I've been going over 'my plan' for the past couple of days. Keep the mind busy and entertained. Keeps my mind off how depressed I really am.

Well, it wouldn't be that bad having a new, young and hot girlfriend. Problem is, would I love her or not... I don't throw that word around. I will be in a relationship for quite a while before I say the 'L' word. And after this, I don't think I'll be looking for love anymore. Probably just companionship (damn, I sound like a personal ad by a lonely 45 year old).

So, since I'm not looking for commitment, what young and hot girl would be interrested? Heck, what old and 'cold' girl would be interested?

Where are those people who are 'not looking for anything serious'? People who just want to pass the time with no strings attached. People who are just as afraid to invest their emotions in another relationship but just need the companionship.

Hello, anybody out there?