White Knight Syndrome

Earlier this year, I told my friend, IC, about my problems with LOML. He told me that I have an illness called 'White Knight Syndrome'. The definition of this 'happiness threatening' illness is:

A personality characteristic found in most males that lead them to:
1. rush to the aid of any female they see who appears in any form of distress.
2. Become attracted to said damsel in distress.
3. Follow the dying code of chivalry and generally act like a nice guy.


I just can't help myself from being attracted to women who have problems. I end up being there for them, and supporting them. And LOML is the epitome of a woman with problems. In fact, in an ideal world, she would have a sticker right across her body with the words "Damaged Goods: Do Not Accept" written on it.

Of course when I first met her, I just couldn't resist. In fact, I had problems of my own as well. We confided in each other. We supported each other. And in the end we fell in love.

So what's the problem?

You see, LOML has never been treated like a queen before. Unfortunately, she has subconciously let the power go to her head. To make things worse, she has an ego so big, she could barely fit through the door. With that, she 'denies' that she is on a power trip.

And who do you think suffers? C'est moi!

It's amazing how badly she treats me... and I stay. According to IC, I stay because of the syndrome. I can't help it but be the nice guy and take all the crap that she dishes out. I can't possibly leave her, because I know that deep down she loves me like crazy and she totally depends on me emotionally.

Now before this 'revelation' by IC, I've always felt that I stay because I love her, and she's worth sacrificing my manly ego as well as a bit of happiness once in a while. But lately, I keep hearing the words "ARE YOU STUPID?" in my head. It could also be an echo in the room from SL asking me the very same question! ;)

It's something that I can't decide on. Do I leave and be happy, or at least be less unhappy? Or do I stay and have cycles of being happy and unhappy? Do these sentences even make sense? So much for having "excellent communication skills".

Let's try this again. Do I leave for my sake, or do I stay for our sake (well mostly for her sake)? And if I stay, is it because of love, or is it because I'm hardwired that way from birth? If it was because of love, then it would be worth it. It shows that I love her that much. And 'love conquers all'... right?

But what if I stay because of white knight? Nice guys finish last...

On a lighter note, telling women that you are suffering from the White Knight Syndrome is a great pick up line! Don't ask me how I know... ;)