Birthdays

Today is my birthday... I feel so old!! I've never actually liked birthdays... I feel like another year has gone by and I have nothing to show for it. Like I've wasted 365 days. I get like this on my birthday and also new year.

I'm 29 years old... that's young, right? The company I work for sent a birthday email this morning. There was a quote... 'Age is strictly a case of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter'... but I mind!!

I used to be able to pass for much younger... in fact, earlier this year, I went to a club and they actually asked for my ID!! Now, just a few months later, when I ask people to guess my age, they guess correctly!! In a few months, I can bet people will say I look 35!

Why does this matter to me? I've always believed that you look younger when you are happy... by looking my age, I'm neither happy nor sad... by looking older, I am sad... does this make sense?

I'm extra upset this year because it's the last year of my 20's... and I'm still trying to get used to the fact that I'm no longger a teenager...

I've started to show signs that I'm getting old... whenever I hang out with my friends, all we do is talk about the 'good old days'... college... high school...

Oh well... Happy Birthday to ME!!