Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder

I think I have a slight case of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). I'm not sure, and I really don't want to know the truth. Let's just accept it as a 'very mild case'.

Some of the things I do seem very funny to the onlooker. For example, I HAVE to fold the burger wrapper at McDonanld's after I've finished the burger. I just can't crumple it up. It feels so wrong. I've had friends actually whisper 'look at him... he's going to fold it...' and then burst out laughing when I do!

Another 'funny' thing I do is whenever my significant other makes a kissing sound over the phone (muah)... i have to reply with the same sound THREE times! (ie muah muah muah)... I can't help it. It would drive me nuts if I didn't.

I've got a million other things that I do that others would find funny and pointless. But to me they are as important as breathing. I sometimes lose sleep because of those things.

For the first time, I've decided to read a bit about OCD.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder

It's amazing how the article describes me. There are things that go through my mind that are so embarrassing that I can't even talk about it in my 'anonymous' blog.

I don't want to go to a psychiatrist. I don't need to pay somebody to tell me that I'm 'nuts'... I already know that! ;)

I have this thing about taking psychiatric drugs. I've taken stuff that's supposed to 'calm me down'. Instead, they make me incredibly depressed.

So I just continue my life with this 'condition' and provide entertainment for all my friends. Hopefully one day they realize the anxiety that I go through when they deny me my little quirks.

LOML for example doesn't understand no matter how I try to explain it to her. She just thinks it's not important, and I shouldn't take it seriously... what a surprise, eh?