Here we go again...

I checked the stats for this blog, and it seems that how most people end up at this blog is by googling "White Knight Syndrome"... leads them to an earlier post of mine. I guess there are lots of guys suffer from this... well, you guys are going to love what happened.

In my last post, I told you guys that she IM me... to appologise... well, it didn't stop there. She wants me to take her back... she regrets what she did... and she misses me...

This went on for two days, after which I couldn't take it anymore and I told her I'd prefer to do this face to face. Don't want to misunderstand or be misunderstood.

Well, we met up. She was happy when I called to tell her the place. I had to call her company cell... she didn't give me her new number... but as soon as she got there and saw that I wasn't smiling, she became... well in a word, sad.

We talked... we argued... and at the end she wanted me to take her back, but she has some 'terms and conditions'. You see, every time she breaks up with me and we get back together, she always imposes new 'restrictions'... things that I like which make me feel closer to her. Things like having her listed as a friend in my Facebook account.

I thought it over... I knew the new 'rules' were coming... and I told her that I did love her. I did miss her. But to take her back, and have to abide with the new rules, and always be living in fear that she'll do this again didn't seem like a good deal for me. After all, she said she made those decisions based on what was 'good for her'...

So I made a decision which was good for me... I want to be in a relationship where both sides try to make it work... I want to be in a relationship where I can express my love in any way that I want and have that person appreciate it... so, I said my goodbyes, and left.

I would think that this is the end of the story... next blog post would be about some new girl I met... well, things don't always work out that way for us 'knights'.

Late that night, she texted me from her 'new' number... finally gave me the number (that was one of the new rules... I guess would make it easier for her to take off again)... she said that she was sorry... it's just that she couldn't control her selfishness... and she will always cherish what we had.

I didn't reply.

Early the next morning (6am to be exact), I woke up to find another text from her at 5am... she says she misses me... I didn't want to leave her hanging, cause after all, I still care for her. So I replied that I missed her too... which wasn't a lie... I missed her like crazy...

I thought I was safe, but I was wrong... she was still awake... couldn't sleep... so I called her...

So we chatted a bit... small talk... and I asked her to go to breakfast with me... it's amazing how excited she was... the excitement was short lived when i gave her some stuff that she had accidently left at my place...

So we talked a bit... and she was still hoping I would take her back... but her ego kept her from just coming back to me without any strings attached (ie the rules)...

I sent her to her car afterwards. I didn't like to see her so sad... even people who don't suffer from White Knight Syndrome are not that mean...

While saying goodbye, she grabs me, kisses me, starts crying (she only got teary eyed the night before) and tells me yes... she wants to be with me... no strings attached...

Now how could I say no to that? It's not that I hate her or was angry at her... all I had for her was love...

She moved back in last night... and for once in over a week, we had a peaceful sleep... it was so peaceful that we were late for work this morning... didn't want to get out of bed...

I don't know how the future is going to turn out... I'm not looking at the past... I'm just interested in the present... appreciate what she does for me... and we'll take it from there...